cold air and cigarettes.
October 2008
going to walmart soon to find something for nanny for her birthday and hopefully figure out what to cook her toooooooo
used to be the apple of my eye, plz read: http://tinyurl.com/5a3tew
i’ve deleted you from my phone
i’ve deleted you from my e-mail accounts
i’ve deleted you from spokeo
i’ve deleted your bookmarks folder on my computer
photos of you (+me, too) have been moved into a certain folder on my photobucket
your t-shirt still hangs in my closet, but it won’t for long
all cards and photos are in a shoebox under my desk with things i dare not see for a long, long time
if you grow up in a year or whatever, feel free to contact me then. don’t try to get a hold of me until you know what you’re doing with your life. until you’re all sorted out. i’d be happy to still be friends then or even try again, but only then. i’ve been with one person for the last four years, i need to see what else is out there. i loved you to hell and back, but we have far too much downtime to suit me. i want something real, something that i can commit to. we have no commitment in this relationship and i’m bored. i can’t do boring anymore. i need something more than seeing someone for a couple days a week and talking through text messages. i want conversation, i want dates, i want something enjoyable. i need someone i can talk to and someone who can talk to me. this is not working.
Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn’t mean we’re not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you’re still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
- Alice: i'mfat?
- jacob: phat maybe
- jacob: phat like tyra banks
- Alice: hahahahah
that I am done living with only a memory.
Although I am alone now, I will not always be alone.
And the void you left will no longer be available for you to fill.